PMD2 Oneshot- Last Wish

Light shines through my eyelids. It is a pale light, the kind you see only at the very beginning of dawn, but it is enough to wake me up.

           I used to like the light. Being a Fire-Type, I used to like anything that produced heat. But now it just seemed cold, like any other thing in this cold, meaningless life of mine.
          
          I have already written the note, the letter, if you will, to Sakura. It explains why I am doing what I am, and why even she, the Being of Emotion, can’t help me. Why no one can help me.
          
          I fold the piece of paper in half and place inside a small envelope.

          As I do so, I wonder how Sakura will feel when she finds it, after I’ve left. She’ll be devastated, for sure, but I know that in time she will come to understand. Sakura is far too intelligent to be crushed by something like this for too long.
         
           I look at her now, sleeping in that room of Wigglytuff’s Guild that we share, peacefully unaware of what is to come. This is the last time I will see her in this world. It’s strange, thinking about it.

          I slowly take a gold chain off from around my neck and walk over to Sakura, being careful to place it around hers. The final nail in the coffin.
          
          Attached to the chain is a blue stone around the size of my palm. The “Amulet” for which our team is named. No, I remind myself, shaking my head. It’s her team now. Sakura’s team. She’ll make a better leader than I ever did.

          I have a firm resolve as to what I’m going to do. I decided it in finality yesterday, and wrote the letter last night after Sakura had fallen asleep.

          But still, even when almost all my willpower is focused on this, there is still that voice that nags in the back of my head.

          “Why,” it asks, “Why are you doing this? You could be happy with Sakura and the rest of the team, you know. You could lead a great life. So why?”

          And always, always, I give the voice the same answer. “It’s because SHE is gone. Kara.”

          Kara, who was the reason that I joined the Guild. Kara, who gave me strength when I wanted to back down. Kara, who gave me a meaning in life. Kara, who WAS the meaning in my life.

          But now Kara is gone.

          So what is the point in continuing?

          I tiptoe past Loudred,  who is asleep at his usual post outside our room. I must not wake anyone up, for if I did I would be kept safely under Chatot’s watchful eye for the rest of my days. That would be horrible.

          I climb slowly up the ladder that leads out of the Guild, careful to skip the creaky step.

          Once outside, I greet the dawn sky. This will be the last time I see it.

          I try to be as quiet as possible as I walk through Treasure Town. No one has opened their shops yet, except for Marowak, but he stays inside most of the time.

          “HEY!”
      
          A child’s voice calls to me. I freeze and turn it the direction it came from. Have I been caught?

          I see a Riolu waving to me. Samara. It looks as though she snuck away from her mother again to squeeze in some early training at the Dojo.

          I breathe. Samara is clever, but far too naïve to understand what I’m doing. I fake a smile back at her and keep walking.

          Finally, I reach the edge of Sharpedo Bluff. It’s been an emotional landslide, just walking here.

          I stand there, for a moment, and remember a time when I was happy. When I was with Kara.

          Yes…. I remember that time when I was talking to Grovyle, with Kara sleeping inside, just as the sun peeked over the sea….

          He asked me how I could be so strong. And I told him….. That it was because Kara was by my side.

          He knew, then, how I felt about her. It was a stronger feeling than Grovyle had ever felt for her, even when she was human.

          The memory that fills my mind changes to the day Kara…. Left.

          The beads of light that covered her body grew brighter. She smiled and hugged me, tighter than she ever had before.

          “Taro,” she said softly, “You have to be strong without me. You have to live!”

          The memory fades.

          The tears form in my eyes. Her last wish…. I am betraying her last wish.

          I stare up at the sky. It is beautiful, but it hides the great pain of life. Just like the rest of the world.

          I look down at the water. My final destination.

          “Kara….” I whisper, “Kara, you told me to live….”

          My vision begins to swim with tears. “But, dear Kara, don’t you understand that I can’t live without you?”

          I am here, on the brink of oblivion. Sudden lightness fills me.

          I am free. Free of the world’s sorrows, free of everything.

          I let myself fall.

          And infinity comes to meet me.